Criticism.

Criticism.

How do you deal with it?

It seems that this week was full of, "Geez, how much weight ARE YOU going to lose?" and "Are you trying to disappear off the planet?" and "Go eat a sandwich" and other comments suggesting I am too thin, or not loosing weight in a healthy way.

Lets get this straight. I'm not TRYING to "lose weight". I'm not ON a "diet".

THIS IS A LIFESTYLE, PEOPLE.

Yes, I watch what I eat. This is my choice. Don't get on my case if I prefer not to eat chocolate cake anymore. (Hell. I ate Dove chocolate today, in fact. I'm not starving myself!)

Yes, I workout 6 days a week. This is for my health. And as I tone up, of course I'm getting smaller and gradually weighing less.

I just don't understand why other people don't understand me. Is it a sin that all of a sudden I want to do something good for myself?

I guess you're going to get the good comments, along with the negative ones.

Or, perhaps, do I just smell jealousy? ;) How about YOU go eat a sandwich and shut your face?

"Cheat Days"

Cheat Days.

What do we think of them?

I personally, think that a cheat day every so often is good to a dieters health. I know how it can be to want something so bad, but telling yourself you CAN'T have it makes the want worse. It becomes more of a "need" and that can end in over-indulgence and binge eating.

I'm proud to say that my last cheat day was over 2 and a half months ago. Yeah. I've been on track for THAT long. It amazed me, too.

Well. Until last night, that is...

Yesterday I held my housewarming party. It was a joint party with my neighbor/landlady/co-worker. We are both on a weight loss adventure (myself loosing around 18 pounds, her 45) so we made pretty healthy food (I made a veggie tray, a fruit salad & fat free brownies) But like at most parties, guests will bring something along with them as well.

We had a "spanish" theme, so there was a lot of sangria, and porron drinking happening. I have learned that I become an endless PIT when I consume alcohol.

I don't remember everything I ate. I know it was a lot. I DEFINITELY don't want to know the calorie intake of yesterday, haha! I know I went to bed drunk, and happy, and very, very full.

But am I kicking myself this morning? Nope. Maybe a little, because I have a massive hangover and wish I didn't drink as much sangria as I did, but I am still happy. Today is a new day to start over. And I know one night of splurging isn't going to make me gain 15 pounds back overnight.

All in all, I think I ate enough food yesterday to keep any "cheating" at bay for awhile. I may never want to see mixed nuts again, though...oye.

Adorable.

Oh, how I relate to these.

Shakeology review.

I've been wanting to try Shakeology now for awhile. I kept seeing everyone's great reviews of it, and the results seemed promising. The only thing holdng me back was the price. Uh, 3 digits? For a SHAKE?

I calcualted it out, and after taxes & shipping and such, its only a little over $4 a day. So basically, its like buying a Jamba Juice daily for a month. Just, a much better for you Jamba Juice.

I got quite a bit money back from my tax return, so I figured, why the hell not and splurge a little while I have extra money?

I got the package in the mail yesterday evening. On my lunch break today, I had my first taste. I ordered the chocolate flavored, and on my first sip I thought, "Eh. Tastes like every other protein powder I've had." Within a few more sips though, it just got better and BETTER. I wanted the glass to be never ending. It is SO GOOD and filling. I had trouble finishing the shake and the yogurt with blueberries & strawberries I was eating along with it.

So, so far so good. (so, SO good! *drool*) We will see what this does for me for the rest of the month. I know at least ONE meal I'm having for the next 29 days! Mmmm.

Motivation to myself, and for others.

My results having been sky-rocketing these past few weeks, its mind boggling. I am down to a size FOUR. A fucking FOUR!

I posted on my facebook status that I've gone from a 9 to a 4 since October, and a had a lot of comments on it. Some were like, "No! You were skinny to begin with!" Others wanted to know what I was doing. Others talked about their Beach Body products/experiences.

Hmmm. But it seems that I have motivated a lot of people this time around. THREE friends told me they bought Slim in 6 today. Do I get commission for this?! Hahaha...I've been preaching SI6 everywhere I go. Its about time people start to listen to me and get with the program. I've been saying since week one, and that first 1.5 inches lost, that it works. I better get tons of hugs & thanks when my peeps start looking hot. ;)

I am starting a Debbie Siebers army! 3 friends down...many more to go!

A Case Of Low-Self Esteem

I have a case of fat head.

What is fat head, you ask? Its how you see yourself, even after loosing a lot of weight, as well, fat.

I KNOW that I am a lot smaller. Hell, I bought a pair of size FIVE jeans yesterday. This is the smallest I've ever been. But it seems that I get adjusted to my new weight and size, and still see myself as the same as when I was a size 9/11. (I should mention I had a pair of my size 11 skinny jeans on yesterday, without a belt, and I spent a few hours walking around hiking the heck out of them. I probably looked like i was doing some sort of crazy person dance.)

So, even after all this, I think of myself as fat? Which is totally stupid and lame. So stupid and lame, i was looking at diet pills. yeah, uh, WHAT? no. i have never believed in diet pills. i think they are a scam and a waste of money. fat head, get out of the diet aisle, please.

gah. i have good weeks, and bad weeks. This seems to be a bad day.

Woah, baby! (Said in Michelle Tanner voice)

Let's put the fact out there right now: I tend to have a major potty mouth. With that said...

HOLY SHIT!

A few weeks ago, I did the unthinkable & returned my scale to Target, because I felt like I was too obsessed with it. Currently, the only time I weigh myself is when I go over to my mom's house. I haven't been there in about 2 weeks, so it'd been awhile since my last weigh in.

Um, I'm down to 126?! When I graduated highschool I was 127 and a size 9. Being a size 5 at 126 is mind freaking' blowing! I always said I wanted to get back down to my "graduation weight".
Wellll buddy. I've gotten there AND I've dropped 2 pant sizes. I have reached my goal, and then some.

I was feeling really "fat" (lame!) today & this just helps me feel a little less icky. I know the number on the scale means nothing, rather the inches lost & how my clothes fit do, but it really does help boost my confidence. Something about that little needle pointing to a smaller number really triggers something in my brain that says, "YES! VICTORY!"

With this, I am only ONE POUND away from my original weight goal of 125. Seeing myself at this point, I may change that goal to 120, to push myself to go a little further. But, we'll see. It may take a helluva lot to lose that last pound, ha! :)

Well, hello.

On Tuesday, October 13, 2009, I made a decision that changed the rest of my life. I started a Beachbody & Debbie Siebers workout, called Slim in 6.

I wasn't overweight to begin with. I didn't need to "loose" any pounds. I just wanted to get in shape, to tone up a bit, to look good for a cruise I was going on in January.

It is now March 2010. The past 5 months have changed the way I look at food, and exercise. It is a choice to shove either a veggie burger or a Big Mac into your mouth; a protein bar or a Snickers bar. Whether or not to do your body a favor and exercise, or sit on the couch and just WATCH others sweat it out.

Since October, I have lost 15 pounds. I have gone from a size 9/11, to a 5/7. I have changed in ways that I didn't even think was possible. I've become a completely new person.

Starting this Sunday, I will begin a new chapter in my adventure - Tony Horton's p90. I'm quite excited. I did it for about a month back in December before going falling back into SI6, because I felt like I need to be more "slim" before I started bulking up. I'm ready for the bulking! Gimmie some guns!

Bring It.