A Case Of Low-Self Esteem

I have a case of fat head.

What is fat head, you ask? Its how you see yourself, even after loosing a lot of weight, as well, fat.

I KNOW that I am a lot smaller. Hell, I bought a pair of size FIVE jeans yesterday. This is the smallest I've ever been. But it seems that I get adjusted to my new weight and size, and still see myself as the same as when I was a size 9/11. (I should mention I had a pair of my size 11 skinny jeans on yesterday, without a belt, and I spent a few hours walking around hiking the heck out of them. I probably looked like i was doing some sort of crazy person dance.)

So, even after all this, I think of myself as fat? Which is totally stupid and lame. So stupid and lame, i was looking at diet pills. yeah, uh, WHAT? no. i have never believed in diet pills. i think they are a scam and a waste of money. fat head, get out of the diet aisle, please.

gah. i have good weeks, and bad weeks. This seems to be a bad day.