Have your cake, and eat it too?

Holy lack of blogging an actual update, Batman!

Not having internet is really lame. The only place I have access to it, rather than my cell phone is work. And, well, I should be WORKING while at work, so I don't have time to update…except, I’m finding myself writing this update at work, so hmmm. There goes that theory!

So, heres what I wanted to update about this time:

I’m still doing p90. Almost at day 60, and I’m finally seeing results. This may be because I totally, TOTALLY fucked myself over and lost all self control and ate/splurged/binged big time on my cruise last month. Ugh. It still makes me sick thinking about it, even though I’ve worked off most of the weight I put on. I hate to even think about it. Its like, did I really work my ass off for 6 months just to seriously gain half of it back? Yeah, HALF. When I got home my scale said 132. 132! I was down to 123! How in the hell did I let myself DO that? Disgusting. Thankfully, the scale has been flirting with the 125 mark, so I’m almost there. I will be back to 123. I am determined. (Hey, I gotta look good for Jillian in October, right?! ;)

So, what happened to my view about "cheat days" that I talked about in a previous post? Hell, cheat days are great. yeah. But a cheat WEEK? A I-lost-track-of-how-many-pieces-of-cake-I-ate week? No bueno.

I take this as a learning experience. I know I can have my cake, yes, but I can't have an ENTIRE cake and expect the scale to stay down. I've even become less strict with myself since I've gotten back, and don't count calories as closely as I did before. I eat healthy, and the weight is coming off. I'm finding a healthy balance. It feels good.